I feel very lost and alone in this world because of my daily struggles Waking up and seeing my self in the mirror is hard I know I don't need any one to make me happy, but I know that I cant make my self happy I have come to the admittance that I will never be HAPPY I may feel a slight sparkle try and force out of the darkness for the split second that it shines I will most likely cherish those moments even tho I know that the daily pain will darken out the light and I will have this hanging over my life but I take some light into me knowing that I can help people no matter how hard and dark I am!
Love the blog header - do you ride? Stumbled in from My3's blog, we don't know each other. After reading your posts, I find myself compelled to respond.
ReplyDeleteNOTHING lasts forever.
NOTHING.
Struggles, being lonely, difficulty facing yourself in the mirror, searching for happiness, feeling hard and dark, all pass.
I promise I have felt these feelings, struggled similarly, for long stretches of time and also felt as if happiness would forever elude me.
I promise, eventually, as in all things, the dark clouds parted, once again the sun shone in, through, for and from me.
And I promise, if you persevere, it will happen for you too.
I promise.
Hey thanks! Don't know how much you read, I undersand where you come from, I also understand there are changes i can make my self but that i can not run from the fact i will struggle with the darkness for the rest of my life. I write here just because its a way to get the feelings out... Thank you for your words!
ReplyDeleteI know exactly what you mean. You write to name the demon, and to name it keep it away, even if only for a second.
ReplyDeleteYou struggle-and it seems like everyone else you see is gliding. You want to scream at them "Stop! Don't you see how HARD it IS?"
But they don't stop.
I have to believe that the struggling makes it easier for me to empathize with others.
Because if I don't, then it just sucks, and I don't know if I can face that.
I do beleive that the struggles have made me stronger and that who i am is who i am, i am not ashamed and never will be and i am glad to know that there are people that struggle like me and that if there wasnt a strugle out there that there wouldnt be living. there is life but that is very different to living the life. never be ashamed of what life has dealt you, but make your choices and dont let other peoples choices make yours
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